i fucked up.
i was going to tell about it yesterday, but i was late to a block party.
all this partying shall soon come to an end. yeah.. once school starts. except for happy hour at bogies on fridays.
kevin (mr. tee)and i had been talking all week. and we had tentative plans on seeing each other. he lives all the way out on the island, but his friend rich is out here. all my friends and i are in the vicinity. i guess he drives out here on the weekends to hang out.
anyway, erin calls me up friday afternoon, and says that she met some girls that are new in town from virginia and that they all decided on going to minnie's for the night. and i told kevin we'd be there if he was interested in meeting up.
erin i got there early, so we sat around and chatted with these girls. while waiting for the scene to pick we amused ourselves with some seriously heavy girl wearing something too too small for her. it was a little black dress.. and she was all over the dance floor.. and at one point she was laying down in the middle of the floor, doing god knows fucking what.. but i know she made a complete ass out of herself.
a little while later, we spot kevin and rich.. and we started talking a bit. i realized second time around from seeing kevin.. um... i wasn't feeling it. he was kind of doofy, and dorky... but he was nice. at one point erin wants to get a drink, so we go to the side bar.. we stand there discussing these two guys. she doesn't care... and i don't care much either about this situation either. so we go back to find them.. and they're gone for the spot we were at. so erin and i started dancing.. and she see's kevin on the other side of the floor. i run over to him and tell him we're on the other side.. and if he wants to join us.. and he tells me he's waiting for rich to come back and then he'll join us.
well kevin and rich never joined us. and erin and i kept on dancing... and i saw this really really cute guy standing there, and gave him the infamous "don't you dance?" line.. and he shrugs his shoulders.. and i just grin at him.. kept shakin' my thang.. and 10 minutes later he says to me "i don't have anyone to dance with".. hehe... what am i? chicken liver?? well this guy was incomparably cute. i mean he is fucking hot. everything about him was scrumptious. and erin caught kevin looking our way.. and she warns me, that kevin's watching.. but he never came our way!!! and we saw rich heading back towards him.. and they still never came to us!.. so i said fuck it.. i met mike.. the incomparably cute guy. kevin, about a half hour later comes to me. while i'm dancing with mike.. and shakes my hand and says goodbye. ooops.
mike tells me he doesn't dance... but i got him to dance.. and erin was getting tired, b/c she started her friday early at bogies. erin left, left me with mike.. tells me she'll be at kerri's if i want to crash there.
mike and i had a quite a few hours to ourselves. we talked a bit at the bar.. and then he walked me to kerri's. where we exchanged digits. b/c he's new in town too! and he asked that i show him around town. i went into kerri's to get a pen.. and sat on the stoop writing, next thing i know, we're tangled into each other on the stoop. hands are going places, breathing's getting heavy. and he says to me "i just want to kiss you all over... i wish we had a bed.."
from kerri's you can hear the waves crashing at the end of the block. so we head over to the beach. climbed up a lifeguard chair, and did more naughty things. he was nice enough to walk me back.. and i was actually planning on going home that too.. and to that i did, b/c kerri's accidently locked me out.. luckily i had the cell with me, and called the cab, and mike waited with me. he was a nice guy too.. and far better looking than kevin. kevin made me laugh, and he could cook.. and he matched up alot of things i want in a man. but that vibe wasn't there. of course with mike that was there.. there was more than vibes.. there was fire between our loins. but i still have yet to find out more about mike.
i called mike up at the block party. i went out to erin's other sister's place.. colleen. and mike only lives about 2 blocks away from where i was. i was planning on just enjoying the block party, but the girls were convincing me to go out.. and then i realized mike's only been to minnie's and thought he's like to head over to the saloon. but i forgot his number.. and i called my dad and made him look for it in my mess of a phonebook. thanks to daddy, i got in touch with mike, and we all got together last night.. and he had friends visiting too and they were pretty cool. i had to call it an early night, b/c i had work in the morning.. and he actually suggested that he could drive me to work in the morning so i wouldn't have to cab it back.. and that he'd sleep on the couch too.. LOL yeah right. nah.. i had to get home. we slipped into the inn after the saloon. it was his roomate's b-day so they were bar hopping. erin once again was failing on me.. all tired.. i was getting droopy eyed.. she left before i did, and i said i'd meet up with her.. and mike walked me to colleen's.. i was pretty drunk last night too. couldn't feel my finger tips. happens when i have a nice buzz going. he even then waited till my cab came. i don't think he went back to the inn. think he went home.. b/c he was walking opposite direction as i left. told him to give me a call. hmmm.. hope so.. can't pass him up. so that was the weekend.. and today kevin emailed me, and it said some shit about him not being pissed that i "hooked up" with someone else. first off, i was DANCING. he said that he's pretty much doing the same thing.. and blah blah blah.. i'll post it tomorrow... i'm getting tired here.. and bleary eyed b/c i'm so fucking tired.. and i have to get my ass up early for work.. fucking sucks... i haven't slept yet.. atleast gotten any decent sleep. anyhoo.. my friend told me kevin's letter was gay. whatever.. i haven't responded, b/c i don't know what the fuck to say.. i kinda wish he left it as is.
but i fucked up... and you know what? i'm not feeling so bad about it anymore...
probably b/c i'm so fucking tired..
i just don't want bad karma..
06:40:11 - 2000-08-28
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