i think i drink too much.
i abuse my body more than i should and sometimes i stop to think that i should detox, and then i think that i'm young and it's what i should be doing before it gets too late.
i started drinking at 2pm in the afternoon saturday. i smoked up a half hour before that and in the car.. somewhere along the way it crossed someone's mind to get food and hey! drink some beers!
we didn't stop until the wee hours of the morning. i think i gave up around 1am. i couldn't take it anymore.. i couldn't stay up.. i passed out in bon's car.
i think there was point where we tried to rest up for a half hour so we can keep going, but the boys wouldn't let us. jumping in the bed, shaking us up.
naughty boys.
they're a good time. my friends are an awesome time.
sometimes i wonder if i'm going overboard because it stops me from getting things done.
i destroy myself the whole weekend.
as if to make up for things that i cannot acquire.
hello?! drinking problem?!
i scare myself sometimes. the fact that i can drink like a fish, and i don't even know what a strong drink really is.
my tolerance level is unbelievable.
after the third rum and coke.. i don't taste the rum.. only the coke. and mind you.. i wouldn't have a buzz yet.
it frightened me even more when i went to a mexican restaurant and i got a little too excited to see that behind the bar was an array of colorful margarita frozen drink machines.
swirling like a washer.
blue. orange. pink. lime. yellow.
my eyes nearly popped out of my head and i licked my lips.
something's wrong.
and my friends don't help me either.
i told bon about this and she got excited too. especially when i told her about the tester shots.
"we should go some friday or saturday!"
we'll go on a saturday afternoon to keep a tradition now.
people asked us what we were celebrating that afternoon, we said, "it's saturday! happy saturday! woohoo!"
drinking problem?
nah.
8:08 p.m. - 2002-04-08
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