it's all been so very hectic.
this past weekend was just like a test to see who can hang the lastest.
the 80's party was a blast. everyone dressed in spectacular tacky duds. i shredded an old t-shirt, and beaded the fringe, and dug some old high top converse sneakers, tied that outfit up with some overalls i've had since i was 16. and i let my hair dry curly, so i had this wild mane.
and calum was there. and there were waves of wanting, but then he disappeared for the night. probably because i was making myself scarce.
i'm afraid. i'm afraid of getting attached. he's bad news. not that he's bad, but he's the type of guy to lay a kiss on you, and then play it off like nothing.
*deep breath*
................................
i had to go to work the next morning, so after the party everyone went night swimming, while i cabbed it back home.
only to come home after work and go back out because pag's birthday bbq.
drinking, smoking.
day after that pag's official birthday. we all got wound for nothing, because no one wanted to go out, so we ate cake from the night before.
tuesday night is ladies night at one the bars we frequent. $5 ladies drink free all night.
and i willingly give them my $5 for cap't & cokes all night long.
and i wanted to see calum there again. but he was to no avail.
*sigh*
pag's took pictures at the 80's party. we were sitting in a corner at the bar looking at them. and there he was in one of the photos, "i want him!!!! i want HIM... and i can't have him..!".
i'm already getting infatuated with the boy, and i have not a chance.
well, actually the only way to see him again is by chance.
i just have to bet my luck on it.
4:09 p.m. - 2001-08-09
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