i thought michael was going to pull another valentine's day on me on sunday night.
we had plans for dinner. he was going to make me dinner, in fact.
i came home from work and gave him a ring, but he wasn't home. so i thought i'd take care of my shit, like nap and shower in the meantime.
i was dressed and ready to go, by 8pm.
he didn't call until sometime near 10pm.
and i was really upset, and was beginning to feel foolish.
and i told him that.
so because he was in the doghouse, that night was about me getting the princess treatment.
mike was going to satisfy a craving i've been having for weeks.
banana granola pancakes.
yep, we were in the kitchen burning pancakes. some of them didn't come out so bad. besides he ate all the burned ones.
at some point dan, his roomie came home.. he asked what possessed us to make pancakes.
mike says i'm pregnant.
i turned around from the stove with such a face, only to look at dan who was still and quiet looking at mike. dan's eyes quickly moved to catch the look on my face and he nearly choked on his juice.
"that's not even something to be toyed with mike! god forbid should i be pregnant! knock on wood!". i'm banging on the cabinets, and i felt my face get all red.
pregnant. shit.
i've been on this pill for two months now. and i swear on my dear life that i have not forgotten one pill. ever.
the sex has been great, because i feel like i've taken precautions to not get myself in trouble. and with that, mike still doesn't feel comfortable finishing inside. so... i could not should not ever be pregnant.
and that sunday night the sex was phenomenal. i felt like my uterus was going to fall out, because it got a beating. (he's just big).
on the way home in the car, we had a small talk about the great sex we just had, and the precautions we've been taking.
i told him i was feeling a little crampy.
"i probably killed all your future children.."
"probably.. if not the next one's yours.. you ARE the only person i'm involved with anyway.."
he was giving me that look of it's-not-mine.
i'm supposed to get my period this week.
it's tuesday. i'm supposed be bleeding sometime today. and i'm a little nervous because i haven't had any sort i'm-getting-my-period symptoms.
all this pregnant talk between me and mike.
i had to reassure myself this morning that there's no way in hell i could be pregnant because I NEVER FORGET TO TAKE MY PILL. i'm really diligent about it. and i know sometimes when women are on birth control, they can miss their period for the month.
i've thinking about calling bon and having a girly talk.. she's the only other person i know who goes through this pill fiasco.
i'm starting to get a headache... that's a period symptom...
this could be a good thing....
5:33 p.m. - 2001-06-19
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