i hate computers and all the technical stuff that comes with it, yet if didn't have all this, i would have no life, since this is my source of communication w/my friends, b/c we think long distance calls are too expensive and email is free. :)
had a wonderful entry, and i lost it. my first was boring and real lame, and noticed how others were more interesting than mine, so i had to play "top that". ;)
so i suppose i'll tell about myself once more since i might consider going "public" with my diary ;).. i'm 21, from NY and i'll be going back to school in sept. after sitting on my ass for 2 years.. i don't know what happened there.. and i work in an art gallery, where i do miscellaneous things, like during the school year i assist in children's art classes, and when i don't do that i work in the ceramic studio next door. all the pieces are made, people just come in to paint them, but i have teach them how to do all that, b/c people are born stupid these days. ;)
i had previously gone to school, my first year.. but eventually the walls would come crashing down, b/c i was carrying too much crap on my shoulders, in my head, my heart. i was all stressed out from my house being broken into and being assaulted (total trauma), bad alcoholic boyfriend, school, parents, blah blah blah.. then i had trouble with financial aid, b/c it's their job to drive you mad.. and that's when i stayed home in my room for almost 2 years.. watching tv, sleeping till 4-5 in the afternoon. i had family cry over this.. they thought i was sick. lol.. but i picked up the pieces and put my life together slowly.. kind of all started when i lived upstate for a summer with my friend and her roomies, where i had my first taste of independence (i still live w/the folks), and where i met the most wonderful man and had a good relationship for about a year, until he got stupid and i had to let him go. i'll tell more some other time, he often resurfaces my thoughts. so now i got a job and i applied to school, and i'm back on track, which i guess is a good thing.. for me anyway. i guess all that time on my ass made me think about what i want to be doing with myself. alot people my age don't have a clue. all i know is i want something to do with art. i want to study, learn it, do it.. and where ever it takes me and makes me happy, i'm sticking to it.
anyhoo, so let me recap on what's happened lately-lately..
my friend rachel came down from oregon to visit, and i hadn't seen her in a while.. we spent some good quality time together and had a blast. it was the first time in a long time i had gone out so damn much. by the 4th i was wearing down. all that partying... bumping into old faces, drinking alot, dancing alot.. smoking alot.. probably was what made me disoriented those last few days. i got a date out of it, he never called though. i was kind of relieved. he asked too many questions.. and had that catholic school girl fetish. i should've never told him.. and he was going on about it, but before he could finish his sentence, i told him i don't have the uniform anymore. whatever..
so i think that's a good summary about what's going on now or what has gone on..
ugh! i've gotta get to bed! it's alost 3am.. and i've got work tomorrow morning! eek!!
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