i don't know what's going on with me.
i went out last night after serious contemplation of whether or not i should spend my money on beer. i need to start saving for books.
i was supposed to go out with pags, but she had janice dragging her to some b-day shindig. instead i went out with erin, kerri & dave. it was their friend's b-day too, and they were bar hopping. which is what i was contemplating. we were going to hit mcquades, but some one decided not to (which is where i was supposed to meet up with pags), and instead we went straight to the saloon. it's an older crowd, but it's ok, if you're with the right group of people.
i had gone to the ladies room several times that night (beer!), and i caught this guy checking me out, but i made nothing of it, b/c he was wearing some black muscle tee, and i was just nuh uh! later his friend some how trickled into our little crowd, and so did mr. tee. erin and his friend, who's name happens to be rich, hit it off. meanwhile mr. tee i noticed wandered over too, but was talking to some other woman. kerri and dave are inquiring about my sex life (which is none), and dave all of a sudden says "i have the perfect guy for you!" and of course kerri being my savior, or so i thought, said "ew no! don't set her up with one of your friends!" dave in his excitement is all "no! no! it's keith, kerri!.. he'll be great!" kerri then agrees.. she thinks he'll be great too.. and they both wondering if i'd be interested in a blind date.
good god... a blind date.
for moment dave got up and left, so i turned to kerri, and asked her if keith was ok.. or cute anyway. kerri says "oh you know i wouldn't hook you up with someone i didn't think was cute.." alright.. fine.. dave comes back and he's got something to say "ok, but you can't judge him by his car.. he's a nice guy and he's really funny.. but he's really into cars.. he has a good job and all, and he makes good money, but he won't by another car... so don't judge him by his car.." ready for this??
blind date has a 1976 monte carlo.
i cringe...
but i agreed to do this.. and i made sure to tell kerri and dave that if this doesn't work out, i don't want this over my head.
so to get back to my night, mr. tee approaches me and introduces himself. mr. tee is kevin. kevin all night yapped my ear off, but was actually really funny.. he had me laughing all night. which i liked. and he managed to memorized my phone number. he asked for it and i said "i can only give you my number if you promise to call me.." it was kevin's b-day last night he turned 25. so rich, his buddy was showing him a night out on the town. surprisingly kevin and i got into in-depth conversations. i think we shared too much for a first time meeting at a BAR. we know each others backgrounds, jobs, goals, schools, relationships, fave sex positions, and foods.
we found out rich doesn't live very far from erin's place, and we cabbed it after hanging around the playground talking and stuff. and we ended up getting dropped off close enough to rich's place, erin's mom's place and erin's own place by the mad cabbie who took us on a fucking rollercoaster ride. i thought he was drinking too. it ended up being he was just insane. we had our choices where to go.. i was actually suppose to go home that night, but.. um.. i didn't. rich's place was closer, kevin was staying there too.. so erin and i went there to "hang out". we had some burgers and tater tots, that rich made at 5am.. and then i see rich drag erin into his bedroom, and i'm sitting there on the couch with kevin.
now! before you start thinking i'm such a ho.. let me continue telling you what really happened.. which is why i raise the question i don't know what's going on with me.
kevin got into his shorts.. i'm still in my jeans and shirt.. and we ended up snuggling on the couch under a blanket. and he gave me little pecks on my lips.
now i wanted more.. but then again i didn't want anything else too.. and we talked and then fell asleep. and i felt like a prude but not prude. i didn't want to just rip my close off, but um.. maybe it just wasn't all there.. you know.. the spark..
lately, i just haven't been in the mood to deal with men.. and then i'm in bed, and think i need to get laid. what the fuck?.. it's so confusing...
it's so true.. i am contradicting. my friend told me this.. and i was so denying it.. but i am...
anyway.. i feel asleep on kevin.. and probably drooled all over him too.. and woke up around 10:30am.. we all had things to do and erin wanted to leave.. and we had to do the walk of shame too (ugh!). as i said goodbye to kevin.. he repeated my phone number. great memory huh?.. and he was buzzed last night too...
*sigh*
and the saga will continue...
02:58:56 - 2000-08-20
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